***Submitted by Anonymous
I finally realized last week that I'm an alcoholic.
Since I'm in nursing
school, and have had the summer off (to get drunk) I decided to get my
drinking in check.
But when I stopped drinking I got sick. At first I
thought it was a hangover. I even googled it to make sure.
But I should
have known better. I've been here before.
But last time I didn't believe
it. I had a very bad drinking problem. The kind where you black out,
run into walls, get carpet burns, and drive drunk with your child.
was committed to a hospital after that. Then when I saw my doctor I was
confident that when I quit drinking it wasn't alcohol withdrawal, it was
He told me differently. Now this time I recognize the
I cut back and within 2 days I was irritable, hands shaking,
and nauseous. Then I had a drink. Instant relief.
I know that I'm a
drunk now, but I'm not as bad a before. I learned my limits. I don't
drink and drive. I don't black out when I can't.
I'm struggling with the
idea of quitting. I know I should but I don't want to.