***Submitted by Anonymous
This is my 20th day sober.
For many reasons I decided it was time to quit drinking. Going to alcoholics anonymous has helped, but this week I've been struggling with the thought of NEVER drinking again. I'm only 21 years old and the thought of saying I'm never going to do something again seems kind of ridiculous to me.
I just feel like that just because at this point in my life I've had problems with alcohol, who says that will always be the case?
I went through with the first step in AA, to admit that I am powerless over alcohol. But all of a sudden I'm questioning myself. Who says I am powerless? Everybody around me? Am I admitting this only because I feel like its what I'm supposed to do?
What if after a year of sobriety I decide I want to drink a couple glasses of wine or a beer? Or what if I end up deciding that I never want to drink again?
All of these questions have been flooding my brain today after meeting with my sponsor. I guess the best advice she gave me was to live for today and in the present moment.
So I guess the best I can do is not worry about tomorrow, or where I'll be in a year from now and do what I feel is right for today...
For today I choose to be sober.