***Submitted by Anonymous
I decided this morning that I must make a change in my life before something bad happens.
I have an awesome husband who would do anything for me and three perfect children who want nothing more than to be with me and I am screwing it all up because I drink way too much.
I have always loved to drink since college but I always binge drink.
When I was doing this with my friends I never thought much about it being a problem, even still when we get together we all drink too much.
I cut down in my thirties but as soon as I had kids after each one was born I was right back on the booze and with each one it became so much worse.
Since the last one came along I have steadily become a daily drinker and within the past few months it is quite scary. I know my husband knows it is a problem but it is like he doesn't want to say anything to me about it.
I am always scared that I have ruined my health but more importantly my relationship with my kids.
I work out daily, I run marathons, I am involved in all of the kids activities but as soon as we are home safely I start drinking immediately to "cope" but the weird thing is that all my life I wanted to be married and have kids so now why do I have to drink to "cope"???
I am stopping today or I am afraid I will not be around to see my kids grow up.
I just can't do this anymore it is too exhausting to get up each day and face myself in the mirror with shame and guilt and I know my kids know even though they are young