***Submitted by Anonymous
I’ve gone from being able to stay away from the ‘drink’ for a couple of weeks at a time to now I can’t stay away for more than a day.
How did I get here?
How did I become so broken?
Why do I use alcohol to self-medicate?
I need to find peace in being sober. I have so much in my life to be grateful for and so much to lose by letting this disease of alcoholism overtake me.
I am afraid of what my life will be without my crutch of having a drink, then, 2,3,4..... until I don’t feel the stress of my life.
But then I awaken from my sleep for another day, just this morning, feeling heavy-headed and sluggish.
I don’t remember what it was like to feel good, to feel healthy.
I am afraid all the time.
I am afraid of failure, of disappointment, of embarrassment, of the quiet.
I don’t want to feel like this anymore.
I need help.
I am crying out to God to help me to find someone who understands to help me.