Tuesday, April 3, 2012

A Binge Drinker Tells Her Truth

***Submitted by Ariel


I’ve been a binge drinker for 20 years.  I have every reason in the world to quit drinking. A great husband, 3 kids that I love like crazy, my own business, friends, and I have the desire to quit – to be a sober person – but I can’t seem to accomplish this.

My husband is a normal drinker.  A couple of beers or a few glasses of wine and he’s good.  He doesn’t have regular blackouts and pass out on the couch, like I do. He’s the responsible one, the designated driver (for me, always).  He’s the one who will pick up our sons if they’re at friends’ houses at night, because God knows I can't drive.

I try to rationalize why I drink about two bottles of wine a night, 4 nights a week, sometimes 5, more if it’s a ‘holiday week’ or we’re away on vacation, or any other excuse. Am I bored and drinking to escape into a buzzed inner-euphoria? (yes).  Am I intentionally trying to set a bad example for my kids? (I’m not doing it because I want to, but yes, of course I am setting a bad example.  I am painfully aware of this, yet I continue to drink too much wine.)  Do I want cirrhosis of the liver?  Do I have a death wish? (no).

I believe that I drink a lot at home out of boredom and habit.  As early as 5pm or 6pm, the cork gets popped and mom’s got a tumbler of wine in her hand…one that will be refilled many times.

I believe that I drink a lot when I’m out with friends, or when my husband and I go out on a super rare occasion, because being drunk feels good and makes me feel like a more interesting,outgoing person to be around.   That is, except when the night devolves in to me being in a drunken stupor, falling off my chair, having someone pour me back into my house later that night.  Me, not remembering the second half of so many nights.

Having said all this, one would never know I have a problem.  I don’t drink during the day.  I *can* go for days without drinking (recently went for 6 straight days while visiting family in another state.  I didn’t even miss my wine. Why is that?) I’m highly functional.  I’m really into fitness (I know, the irony).  I work outdoing hard core cardio or weight training nearly every day and I eat right.  I’m in love with my kids and husband, have a nice house, I’m great at what I do according to my clients, yada yada.

So why the heck can’t I even cut down?  It’s just getting worse and worse.

I worry that I’m going to go the way of Whitney Houston.  I’m almost the age she was when she died earlier this year.  I hope I can muster the strength to go to a women’s meeting. I don’t have the strength yet to tell friends, family, or even straight-on tell my husband of my problem (but geez, he knows, right?).

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  1. i recall elly of 'one crafty mother' referring to the evening drink commencement as "the witching hour". the boredom sets in and you feel the urge to settle it. try doing anything else: go for a walk with your family, the beach, garden, something to keep you out of the house or away from the source during that time.
    Above, seek help; we all need it, alcoholic or not.

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      you can call the great man on +2347050203191.
      He cast spells for different purposes like
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    10. Am here to testify what this great spell caster done for me. My Name is NICHOLAS EMILY, i never believe in spell casting, until when i was was tempted to try it.. i and my husband have been having a lot of problem living together, he will always not make me happy because he have fallen in love with another lady outside our relationship, i tried my best to make sure that my husband leave this woman but the more i talk to him the more he makes me fell sad, so my marriage was falling leading to divorce because he no longer gives me attention. so with all this pain and agony, i decided to contact this spell caster DR OGBIDI to see if things can work out between me and my husband again. this spell caster DR OGBIDI told me that my husband is really under a great spell that he have been charm by some magic, so he told me that he was going to make all things normal again. he went ahead and cast the the spell for me, after 2 days of casting the spell my husband changed completely he came apologizing saying the way he treated me that he was not himself, i really thank you DR OGBIDI for bringing back my husband to me i want you all to contact him for those who are having any problem related to marriage issue and relationship problem he will solve it for you. his mail here DROGBIDISOLUTIONHOME@GMAIL.COM OR DROGBIDISOLUTIONHOME@YAHOO.CO.UK OR contact him through his website http://drogbidisolutionhome.webs.com/
      you can call the great man on +2347050203191.
      He cast spells for different purposes like
      (1) If you want your ex back.
      (2) if you always have bad dream
      (3) You want to be promoted in your office.
      (4) If you want a child.
      (5) You want to be rich.
      (6) HIV/AIDS CURE
      (7) You want to tie your husband/wife to be yours forever.


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  2. You took the first step and admitted you were powerless over alcohol. now contact an AA office in your area and have them put you in contact with a sober woman. Do this before you take a drink. It's simple but not easy.

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    1. Am here to testify what this great spell caster done for me. My Name is NICHOLAS EMILY, i never believe in spell casting, until when i was was tempted to try it.. i and my husband have been having a lot of problem living together, he will always not make me happy because he have fallen in love with another lady outside our relationship, i tried my best to make sure that my husband leave this woman but the more i talk to him the more he makes me fell sad, so my marriage was falling leading to divorce because he no longer gives me attention. so with all this pain and agony, i decided to contact this spell caster DR OGBIDI to see if things can work out between me and my husband again. this spell caster DR OGBIDI told me that my husband is really under a great spell that he have been charm by some magic, so he told me that he was going to make all things normal again. he went ahead and cast the the spell for me, after 2 days of casting the spell my husband changed completely he came apologizing saying the way he treated me that he was not himself, i really thank you DR OGBIDI for bringing back my husband to me i want you all to contact him for those who are having any problem related to marriage issue and relationship problem he will solve it for you. his mail here DROGBIDISOLUTIONHOME@GMAIL.COM OR DROGBIDISOLUTIONHOME@YAHOO.CO.UK OR contact him through his website http://drogbidisolutionhome.webs.com/
      you can call the great man on +2347050203191.
      He cast spells for different purposes like
      (1) If you want your ex back.
      (2) if you always have bad dream
      (3) You want to be promoted in your office.
      (4) If you want a child.
      (5) You want to be rich.
      (6) You want to tie your husband/wife to be yours forever.


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    2. Fuck of cunt! You're useless here!

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    3. My name is MORGAN TRACY from USA My husband and I were happy as far as I could tell and I never thought that we would break up. When his cousin died in a tragic car accident he went back to London for a week to be with his family. I could not go because I was in the middle of entertaining out of town clients for work. He did not seem to be upset that I could not go so I let him be. The next thing that I know, he reconnected with an old friend from high school that he had a crush on years ago and they started to have an affair! I had no clue what was going on until a month after he came back from London.He proceeded to see both her and I until I caught him testing her one night. I confronted him and he told me the truth about what happened. We broke up and went our separate ways. Neither of us fought for our relationship. I was angry and decided not to be upset about it and just keep it moving. Then after about a month of not speaking to him I became sad. I wanted him to tell me that he wanted to be with me and not her. I contacted DR.JATTO for a love spell and he totally helped me! he was able to get him to miss me to where he wanted to get back together again. He had a lot of regrets and felt bad for not fighting to keep me and for cheating in general. He values our relationship so much more now and we are together now! You can also get your lover back with the help of DR.JATTO contact him through his email: drjattolovespelltemple@gmail.com

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  3. I came from a family of alcholics, they are deceased now from the
    disease, most recently my nephew, age 50. I choose not to use any
    drug and alchol is a drug. My daughter did not, herion was her drug
    of choice. She is an addict and will be an addict the rest of her
    life, but came to me for help and she now six years sober!. Admitting
    to yourself is your first step, the next step is to pickup the phone
    and call the AA 24 hour hotline. They WILL call you back within 24
    hours. What THEY tell you do WILL save your life! You do not owe an
    explanation to your husband at this time. For all we know he could
    very well have a problem too. Addicts lead a normal life and can
    lie better than anybody, don't be fooled by this disease!

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  4. I think you're me - highly functional, workout, eat healthy (saves calories for alcohol), great family, husband as DD - not even a question, happy clients. Endlessly reading blogs waiting for the right inspiration to quit but really wanting to moderate because the idea of quitting is painful, really painful. Feeling envious of others who have made the decision and now find joy and peace and a better life. I don't know what it will take... I hope you figure it out and post about it.

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    1. This really gets me thinking. I had grown up with divorced parents: my mother in recovery, my dad a drinker but he had always seemed to be normal. I am in my 20's and am concerned. I don't know if it is from always hearing from my mom growing up, the words of "You will be an alcoholic, it is inevitable, you are an alcoholic" or if I actually may have a problem. I love a few beers, or a few glasses of wine and drinking with close friends and loved ones. However, I hate partying and the black-outs, for I had too much of that in college. Now after college, with my head a little clearer I feel guilty for the times I do drink. I'm not sure why, because I see others my age that I would think of as having an alcohol problem. I enjoy a buzz, rarely get passed buzzed however I will always enjoy a drink or two every night after work and what not.

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  5. I am you and I am now 2 plus years sober. My truth is now that my absolutely worst day as a sober mom is still infinitely better than my best day as a drinking mom. Stay in the blogs. Read "Drinking: A Love Story" by Caroline Knapp. Talk to you husband...he knows and he's worried about you. Your kids know too-I have found out just how much since I've been sober and I'm learning to live with the guilt.

    You can get sober without AA like I did but it's a helluva lot easier if you go. For me, it's the only place I've ever been where I don't feel shame.

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  6. Good for you for admitting you have a problem. That is huge. Yes, a woman's meeting will make you feel great and put things in perspective, when you are ready. In the meantime, read the blogs. Also maybe check out an online AA meeting if you're too nervous to go to a actual meeting.

    Thanks for sharing!

    XO

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  7. I second reading Drinking, A Love Story. I read it twice before I quit drinking. I can relate with much of your story....esp the husband enabling....its tough....

    Check out AA or Celebrate Recovery....there IS hope-

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  8. If AA doesn't work for you, try Women for Sobriety. Thanks for posting - you sound like me (except I don't work out)

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  9. I too was a functioning alcoholic. I had a successful career, a Mother, work out all of the time (sometimes with hangovers so bad I thought I would pass out) but then one day it all fell on top of me like an earthquake takes down a small city. I have friends approach me about how to get sober or whether or not I think they have a drinking problem. My answer.. the only answer is... when it starts to create problems in your life... you need to take a long hard look at the destruction it is causing... especially to those that you love. I eventually lost everything. I too thought that I could not find the happiness being sober because alcohol offered an escape from reality but sobriety offers so many more wonderful gifts. I have learned so much about myself, how to learn to love myself again, how to learn to love others without masking it behind a bottle, the power of forgiveness, the kind of person that I want to be. Go to a meeting and meet other people just like you. The serenity and peace that you feel when you hand over your disease and face it head on, is so powerful. My alcoholism has cost me a lot but boy has it taught me a lot about life, to me it's a gift and once you find the beauty in sobriety it's a gift that will allow you to "pay it forward."

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  10. Ariel,
    Here's the good news, you don't have to figure it out. You can quit trying to rationalize it, because you never will. All you have to do is quit. That's it. So simple but incredibly hard to do. I know. I was a daily heavy drinker for 30 years. I couldn't envision a life without alcohol until I could see myself dying if I continued to drink. Take a leap of faith and believe what everyone here is telling you. Because it's true. Life is better without alcohol. Period!

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    1. So very, very true!!

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  11. You drink because you are alcoholic - physical craving and obsession of the mind.

    You say people don't know, don't notice when you fall out of chair?

    I stopped when I was 45 and will have 28 years in AA this month.

    Don't rationalize - just do it.

    Best,
    Sally

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  12. I saw someone mention Drinking: A Love Story. Reading that was my first step. Then I posted here, joined Women For Sobriety (WFS), set a quit date, began reading and contributing to the forums, found my local WFS meeting and have been continuously sober for almost 60 days. It hasn't been easy, sometimes it's been a downright battle with myself, but my life has changed drastically for the better.

    I am 32 and spent the better part of 6 years drinking daily. I was an extremely high functioning alcoholic though now I looking back I cringe. I had no idea what functioning was until I quit.

    As one of the moderators at WFS says, "We can drink, or we can have the life we want. That's the choice."

    That really says it all.

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    1. Your journey sounds a lot like what I'm going through right now, too. I've been struggling with maintaining continuous sobriety over the last few months - it's a battle, but one I know will be worth it. I just started seeing a therapist again - being truthful for the first time in therapy was a huge step - and feel blessed to have gotten to the place where I'm finally ready to be kind to myself. My yoga practice and community help, too. I'll be 32 in a few months and hope to be sober when I do. Good luck to you - and everyone!

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  13. I am currently a daily drinker. I have tried AA and have family members in the program. I personally have seen how it works, but I do not agree that anybody is powerless over anything. I think it stems from bordem and habit. People need to figure out the root of their problem, including I.

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    1. Boredom is right

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    2. Once a drink is ingested an alcoholics body will physically crave more and the mind will obsess over getting it. I am personally as Powerless over that craving as I am over a sneeze.
      I am also powerless over another persons impression of me, or their behavior - Oh the list goes on and on......
      The root of my problem is ME and thank God that really is the only thing I have power over. Thank you AA for opening the gates of hell and letting me out.

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  14. I feel like you are telling my story. I am a bit younger but have always been a binge drinker. I quit. I quit because I have 3 awesome kids and a great husband. I could never just have one or two beers and at first a six pack would do it but then I was drinking like a 30 pack per week and it terrified me. Then I would eat healthy and go to the gym or run 5-6 miles per day. I was living a total facade...now I feel great and everytime I think of drinking I look at one of my precious kids and that is my why not to...

    Good luck and many blessings to you..you can do this!!

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    1. I had no idea how many of "us" would exercise and live otherwise healthy lives. I began to think how crazy it was for me to act like I was a healthy person. If I really cared about my health, I would give up the boozing. Chia seeds couldn't undue that damage!

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  15. Ariel,

    You are already on the right track. You know your drinking is a problem and it sounds like you are fed up with it. You have a support system behind you in your husband, who knows you have a problem but hasn't pushed you to confront it until you're ready. And of course you have your kids! You want to be there for them now and in the future. Contact AA in your area, attend a meeting, don't make excuses and choose recovery now.

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  16. I'm there now. Going for not drinking again.

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  17. I remember waking up 9 months ago with puffy face, blurry eyes and stomach "issues" from too much wine , and looking in the mirror hating how hung over and sluggish I felt wondering how I was ever going to stop this cycle.

    I too am a mom, married, happy life, fit, eat very healthy (except for wine and lately vodka). I realized that I was not really living a life. I was withdrawing every night into wine and it was slowly killing my spirit. I was a shell of a person, with no idea how to feel anymore and it scarred me to death.

    Now, nine months later I feel great! It has gotten easier and I love waking up not hating myself and most importantly I am fully present for my kids. I cannot get those years back but I can press on!
    Take care

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    1. I think you're reply is the one to do it for me. I wake up EVERY morning HATING myself because I drank too much the night before. Like the rest of you Im an otherwise normal, healthy, functioning, giving, loving Mom. I dread 9:00 pm all day long because that's when I pour that first glass and I know Im powerless to stop until the bottle's gone. Thanks for this post :)

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    2. Ditto above. Ive been sober 3 weeks now and I too am a fully functioning full time career woman with a child but every afternoon the wine is open the the vodka would start and every morning the self loathing would start again. Its not helped that my boyfriend finished with me the day I decided to stop drinking but I have not had a drink since Janurary 19th. Today has been the hardest day as ive been alone all day and evening and im so happy I found this blog tonight x

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  18. Resistance to temptation and controlling yourself is the key of the problem. If you can drink a lot when you are with your friends, I guess it would be better to minimize going out with them, if cannot avoided, you must learn to control yourself.

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  19. HOW I WAS FREE FROM ALCOHOLISM AND SMOKING
    i have been drinking too much of late….. i’ll “accidentally do a bottle of wine” in an evening over a period of about three hours. last night i drank three large rum punches…. over about two and a half hours. i feel groggy and slow today and maybe in the grand scale of alcoholism i have little to ‘worry about” but i am concerned seeing as my Dad was a major alcoholic and it killed him, i told my best friend about it, he gave me Dr sambol contact and i email him immediately and explain every thing to him and he ask me what to do after the casting of the spell i was free from alcoholism i’m on a week without booze, contact him he can be of help to you drsambolspelltemple01@gmail.com

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  20. Hi there,

    You're not alone! I have been trying to cut back on wine, but I so do crave it from time to time and I love it! I can go 3-4 bottles a week if I REALLY want to. I try limiting myself to 1 per weekend but that has not been the case in a long time. I also believe that I drink out of boredom and habit as well. Plus I do enjoy the taste of it and how it makes me feel. I am in my early 30s, well educated, has a career, a loving boyfriend (soon to be fiance), friends, family, etc. But I am concerned that my tolerance is so high. I can finish a bottle in a night and only feeling super buzzed. But I'd wake up just fine the next morning. I too would want to cut down a lot. But it has been so hard.

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    1. I hope you have cut back or stopped drinking.

      I once heard someone say, "When you can stop drinking you don't want to and when you can't stop drinking is when you want to."

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  21. I've been binge drinking for twenty years, also very functional but also apparent. I too have a husband that somewhat enables me. I just had a check up and blood work done and everything is completely normal. I like the way wine tastes and it makes me feel relaxed. Ive quit several times over the years for up to a year but then feel like I can handle it again. I have great medical coverage for treatment but don't ever want to have to check that box that asks if you've ever been treated for addiction. I did for the first time ever through a half full box of wine in the garbage. We will see. I'm ready to stay sober the rest of my life.

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  22. Alcohol is a nightmare. Ive lost my child over binge drinking. I wasn't drunk in the day but the evening I would drink to numb loneliness. ..
    when my child was asleep I felt lonely. But the binging mainly happened when I occasionally went out. Knowing my daughter was safe with my mum I would drink. Have blackouts ,accidents end up at hospital and get barred from pubs (I would be rude to bar staff after they refused to sell me any more alcohol) my mum and I fell out and one night after two months of not going out to drink, I did the awful thing of leaving my daughter alone, after all my mum was the only person I trusted with my child. That night all that was on my mind was booze! Selfish destructing booze! I fainted that night was brought home by a stranger and that person called the police. My child was taken into care. I was heartbroken and realised what i had done. But sadly the drinking got worse. As a person who suffers bipolar my moods are extreme as it is . Booze makes it 100 times worse. ...I tried to get my child back home but failed and she was adopted .I am still battling with the booze now. I have pancreatitus through drinking and im only 27. I sing songwrite , paint and I am a very caring person When SOBER .....

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  23. I am a weekend alcoholic. I never drink from Monday through Thursday, unless I am on vacation, however I can buy a case of beer on Saturday morning and it's gone by Sunday night. I really don't know if I'm an alcoholic because I've never actually tried to quit drinking. My sister and my best friend are alcoholics and it's caused me so much pain the things they have done when they are drinking. I would like to quit drinking but I'm bored. I am 52 and have been single for 12 years. My kids are grown and gone and I have 2 adorable grandsons that are my world. I keep them on the weekends and I drink while they are here. I hate that I do and I try not to but I can't seem to get through the weekends without drinking constantly. I need help and I have made the decision to stop drinking on New Years Day 2014. I hope I can do it.

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  24. I have a similar problem (although I would down almost a bottle a night). Like you, I don't suffer the effects of withdrawal when I don't drink, and can easily go without drinking if it is necessary. The problem is that life is just better when I drink. I'm quite an intellectual person and I find that life generaly doesn't provide me with the stimulation I need and alcohol helps me to relax and be more fulfilled in my daily life. It has no effect on my career or my relationship (or my health, so far), so it's very hard to justify stopping...especially when it makes me feel so good. I know it's bad for me, and that it can only get worse, not better, but what is the alternative? Rampant boredom? I could go for a walk, but that's boring too. I can watch a movie, but that's just another way to get in the mood for a drink (to help with relaxation). Reading helps, but I can only read for a couple of hours tops before I need to take a break...guess what follows?

    Even when I engage in intellectual debate and conversation I find that alcohol actually helps me rather than hinders me. It certainly doesn't hold me back.

    I rarely get drunk, but I do drink every night (at least 3 - 5 glasses).

    I really don't know what the answer is.

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  25. I can relate! The last couple of days I have been trying to avoid binge drinking by just drinking one bottle of wine a night. I know this is too much and everyone says to have only one glass. But I have a high tolerance and I like the feeling of it, how I feel happy and relaxed and then I can sleep. I really don't have bad hangovers hardly ever no matter how much I drink. I read a nice article at http://www.uncommonhelp.me/articles/how-to-stop-drinking-wine-every-day/ and I liked the advice there. I don't really want to be sober but I am getting pretty fat and I don't want to have liver damage either. Maybe instead of spending $6 a night on one bottle (can you believe what the charge in the restaurant?) I will take this advice and get one bottle every three days and spend $24 on the one bottle and try to spread it out over three days? I also don't have to drink every day, but then I will binge. I looked at myself in the mirror and laughed that I if I can't change myself who do I think is going to? It is not that I am powerless, it is just that like to drink. I agree, it adds to my enjoyment and fills the time in nicely.

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  26. I'd like to add my two sense. I hope by now you have found that woman's meeting .That is the only thing that has kept me sober. Going to meetings and not drinking. Your story is very relatable I have a wonderful husband and 3 young men now. Did the majority of my drinking at home. As of today I'm living a healthy sober life. It is worth doing the work to break the habit. I wish you the very best in life One day at a time

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  27. Well by now you've either overcome the addiction or likely it has become worse, or remained about the same. I hope you've overcome it. As someone who has struggled in my adult life with dependency on one substance or another (it's all about alcohol for me these days) I have to say, get into AA or seek professional help. Make a commitment to go without alcohol completely for a sustained period of time (minimum of 6 months) to see how you feel after that much time without it. But you have to do the AA program, go through the steps so you can identify and work through any issues in your life. It's challenging but if you have the determination to change, you absolutely can. Life is too short. Make the most of it. Some people would say that is a reason to get drunk. Well, listen to your conscience and if it's telling you to stop drinking, that's what you should do. All the best.

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  28. I am not an alcoholic but would think I could fit into the category of alcohol abuser, even if I did not have a regular drinking pattern. So why an abuser? Because the most heartbroken and shameful events of my life happened while being intoxicated. Things happing while being drunk influenced my sober happiness by the shame it inflicted on me. I never hurt anyone or experienced any physical consequences. But shame itself coming from bad decisions while being drunk can be just as damaging to your happiness. Of course being drunk does not excuse what we do, just to be clear about that. But if you notice how alcohol is negatively influencing your life one way or the other, then why keep on drinking it? I had many smaller warnings along the way, on how alcohol negatively influenced me, and lets not mention the hangovers or post-drinking anxiety. But It took a couple of really shameful incidents to make me realize what part alcohol played in this picture. Now I choose teetotal. I stopped torturing myself by thinking I should have learned my lessons earlier and how some years of my life could have been different if going teetotal the first time. But even at 41 it is what you do from now that matters most. Every day I experience how fantastic a life without ANY alcohol in it is! Waking up early in the morning without hangovers, never again post-drinking regrets, the confidence from making a clever decision for yourself, just to mention some. Coming from a non-drinking upbringing, social drinking never worked for me. And I will never again try to convince myself or being convinced by others that "one glass won't hurt". It may work fine 8 out of 10 times, but sooner or later you risk being back in the fire. As every alcoholic knows..its the first drink that gets you drunk. I never drank regularly or often, even years of abstinence, but still experienced negative effects from using alcohol. That tells me alcohol is a very dangerous substance and by standing sober on the sideline it is incredible to experience how huge part alcohol has gotten in todays social world. Alcohol becomes totally absurd the longer you choose to abstain. The social exclusion I substitute with other non-alcohol activities that are not happiness-thiefs.

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  29. Am Sevda Gulea i want to thank Dr. ODIAGBE AKHIGBE for getting my lover back to me within 48 hours. When my lover left me i was so tired and frustrated till i search the internet for help and i saw so many good talk about Dr. ODIAGBE AKHIGBE of (airehobhuanuagbontemple@yahoo.com) and i decided to give him a try and i contact him and explain my problems to him and he cast a love spell for me which i use to get my husband back. If you want to get your lover back contact Dr. ODIAGBE AKHIGBE via email: (airehobhuanuagbontemple@yahoo.com) Dr. ODIAGBE AKHIGBE the great man that is able to bring back my lost love.

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  30. Hello,everyone i am from USA i never ever believed in spell until i meet a man called Dr laco.(lacopowerfulspellcaster@yahoo.com) , who help me cast a spell that bring back my ex-lover who left me for two years before our marriage,His spells works beyond my imaginations and today i am happily married with two kids and me and my [ex-lover] now husband are very happy more than ever before,what more can i say rather than to say thank you Dr laco for been there for me,contact him today and your life will never ever remain the same his email is (lacopowerfulspellcaster@yahoo.com)

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  31. Hi, my name is Connie Hammer. I have been in great bondage for almost 2 years suffering in the hands of a cheating husband,we were happy and leaving well until he meant his old time girl friend and he started dating her outside our marriage before you knew it he stoped caring and taking care of his own family it was to the extent that he was planning to get married to her and divorce me his own wife, i have cried and reported him to his family but he never listened to any one but to cut my story short i came in search for a real spell caster who could destroy their relationship and make him come back to me and our 2 kids on my search i saw people making testimony on how their marriage where restored by Esango Priest i pick his email and i narrated my story to him and he agreed to help me and after performing a spell on the second day both had a quarrel and he beat his girlfriend up and he came home begging for i and my little kids to forgive him that his eyes are clear now that he will never do any thing that will hurt his family again and promise to be a caring father and never cheat again.I am so so happy that i did not loose him to the girl. all appreciation goes to Esango Priest for you are a Great spell caster and to whom this may concern if you have a cheating husband or wife or you need your ex lover back again. you can as well email him on (esangopriest@hotmail.com or esangopriest@gmail.com) or you can call him +2347089985067.

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  32. Sometimes,Life can be very displeasing especially when we loose the ones we love and cherish so much. in this kind of situation where one loses his/her soul mate there are several dangers engage in it. one may no longer be able to do the things he was doing before then success will be very scarce and happiness will be rare. that person was created to be with you for without him things may fall apart. That was my experience late last year. but thank god today i am happy with him again. all thanks goes to Dr. EDIONWE, i was nearly loosing hope until i saw an article on how Dr. EDIONWE could cast a love spell to make lovers come back. There is no harm in trying, i said to my self. i contacted him via email: edionwesolutiontemple@yahoo.com. words will not be enough to appreciate what he has done for me. i have promised to share the good news as long as i live. he also helped me with promotion in my office. Dr. EDIONWE work is wow... since i met this man, everything is just going as i wished. i am very happy now. i urge you all to contact him via email: edionwesolutiontemple@yahoo.com. No matter what your problem is, i believe there is a spiritual solution to it and its perfect. just try, you will be happy and will also share a testimony as i am doing now.

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  33. Hello i am James Hugh,I am out here to spreed this good news to the entire world on how i got my ex lover back.I was going crazy when my lover left me for another man last month,But when i meet a friend that introduce me to Dr Zack Balo the great messenger to the oracle that he serve,I narrated my problem to Dr Zack Balo about how my ex lover left me and also how i needed to get a job in a very big company.He only said to me that i have come to the right place were i will be getting my heart desire without any side effect.He told me what i need to do,After it was been done,In the next 3 days,My love called me on the phone and was saying sorry for living me before now and also in the next one week after my love called me to be pleading for forgiveness,I was called for job interview in my desired company were i needed to work as the managing director..I am so happy and overwhelmed that i have to tell this to the entire world to contact Dr Zack Balo at the following email address and get all your problem solve..No problem is too big for him to solve..Contact him direct on: wiseindividualspell@gmail.com and his phone number is +2348078927387. and get your problems solve like me..

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  34. I'm from USA. I want to inform you all that there is a spell caster that is genuine and real. I never really believed in any of these things but when I was losing My man, I needed help and somewhere to turn to. I found a spell caster name DR Sango and i ordered a LOVE SPELL. Several days later, my phone rang. my Man was his old self again and wanted to come back to me! Not only come back, the spell caster opened him up to how much I loved and needed him. Spell Casting isn't brainwashing, but they opened his eyes to how much we have to share together. I recommend anyone who wants his lover back to give him a try. It will bring you a wonderful surprises as well as your lover back to you. The way things were meant to be." you can contact the spell caster on sangospelltemple@gmail.com

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  35. Hello,
    Am Jessica by name My ex-boyfriend dumped me 6 months ago after I
    accused him of seeing someone else and insulting him. I want him back in
    my life but he refuse to have any contact with me.I was so confuse and
    don't know what to do,
    a friend of mine introduce me to Dr Ayelala by giving me his email, i never believed until
    I contact him and explain my problem to him and he cast a spell for me and assure me after 3days that my ex will return
    to me and to my greatest surprise the third day my ex came knocking on my
    door and beg for forgiveness. I am so happy that my love is back again and not
    only that,we got MARRIED.all thanks to Dr Ayelala. If you have a
    similar problem please contact him on doctorspellsolution@hotmail.com

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  36. am taking my time to tell the whole world of what this great man called alexanda did for me and my family 18months ago me and my husband have been having marriage issues just because on one of his girlfriend that wanted to take him away from me and i was very desperate not to loose him and i contacted many spell casters who all failed me but when a friend told me about this man i never beleived until i contacted him and i told him all my problems and he told me not to worry that is just going to take five days that i should do what he tells me and to my greatest surprise after the fifth day my husband was crying and begging me for forgiveness and now we are living happily once again thank you alexanda were ever you are and you are having this kind of problem or any other you can contact him for help through his email @ alexandathegreat@yahoo.com

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  37. Greetings to every one that is reading this testimony. My name is PROMISE, I have been rejected by my husband after three years of marriage just because another woman had a spell on him and he left me and the kid to suffer. one day when i was reading through the web, i saw a post on how this spell caster on this address olunkunspelltemple@outlook.com, have help a woman to get back her husband and i gave him a reply to his address and he told me that a woman had a spell on my husband and he told me that he will help me and after 3 days that i will have my husband back. i believed him and today i am glad to let you all know that this spell caster DR ABAKA have the power to bring lovers back. because i am now happy with my husband. His email olunkunspelltemple@outlook.com

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  38. If i were to be asked if i would ever contact a MAGIC PRIEST Online during an interview of any sort, i would ask the interviewer if they were out of their mind Because things like that cost them there job. Not just because i thought of MAGIC spell as something fetish but also because most people see MAGIC spell as pure madness. At least that was my point of view about MAGIC spell until METODO ACAMU showed me what true MAGIC spell was. He helped me get back my husband that was involved with my best friend from even before we got married. My suspicion started on my husband 45th years old birthday i threw for him. I was working my ass out trying to making sure he has the best time of his life that day while himself and one of my best friend were all over each other. I did not notice anything because she was one of my best friend and we shared a lot together who would have ever thought that she would stab me at the back. But my other friend noticed what was going on. They observed that anytime he dropped his phone, she picks hers up and like they told me it went on for about 2 hours straight. They did not tell me until after the birthday bash. They told me all about what was going on i was totally shocked i could not believe that my best friend and my husband were involved with one another. I was going to jump into conclusion and ask them about it but no i decided find out more information to get my fact right. With the help of my friend who still had my best interest in heart they were able to steal her phone ie they back stabbing friend phone. And i got to know all i need to know. My husband and her have being see each other since even before we got married and my husband confirmed it was he was like she has always been the one he loved and wanted to spend his life with. I was so sick and sad, what was i going to tell our kid that mommy and daddy can not stay together anymore cos of the my friend they call Aunt ? i remember that i cried for days with the thought that i have been a fool for nine years not noticing anything like i was a fool in love with someone who never loved me. It was like my heart was failing. I was still in love with my husband even if he no longer wanted to be with me. I could not bear the pain of being without him and having to lie to my kids so i found a MAGIC PRIEST to help me. Though i was skeptical about it i just thought to myself what do i have to loss i mean with a MAGIC spell or not i have lost the one thing aside from my kids that made me whole and the probability that i was loss my kids to him when it came to custody battle was at the high so i just let myself do what my heart told me to do. I contacted METODO ACAMU after reading a comment on a blog about how he has helped a lot of men and women fix their problem. I explained to him my situation and he promised he was going to help kill my pain by bring the man i love back to me. He asked me to either get some materials he listed for me and send them to him via ups or i bring them to him in his temple or i can also send him the cost of the materials to get them for me. I sent the cost to him because it was the cheapest option of all. It took him about 6 day to prepare the spell and after which he send me a package containing something am not allowed to tell but i can promise it is totally harmless to even a fly along side instructions on how to make the MAGIC spell active. It took another 5 days for the Magic spell to became active and after that day it was almost like magic i can explain what happened but all i can say is that my husband came back to me asking me to take him back telling me how much he loves me and wanted to be with me. My life is back to how it ought to be with my husband and my kids by my side. METODO ACAMU helped me make this happen. Here is his contact for those who believe and want to contact him metodoacamufortressx@yahoo.com

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  39. I want to thank God for the use of DR IDUMOTA as my source of salvation after 2 years of unemployment and my lover left me alone for 2 years, only broken heart until I met after drivieidumota@gmail.com a testimony ladies how was helped by the same DR. IDUMOTA, so decided to contact him and when I told him all my problems laughed and said this is not a problem. everything will be fine in three days. Exactly on the third day of my ex lover call me surprised me and what surprised me was that a company applies for more than four months ago called and said I should return to work as soon as possible.Am very grateful to DR. IDUMOTA, if you wish to contact him, his email is (drivieidumota@gmail.com) it makes the spell as follows
    (1) If you want your ex back.
    (2) you need a divorce in your relationship
    (3) Want to be promoted in his office.
    (4) Would you men and women run after you.
    (5) If you want a child.
    (6) Do you want to be rich.
    (7) You want to tie your husband and wife to be yours forever.
    (8) If you need financial assistance.
    (9)Herbal Care Contact him today
    (drivieidumota@gmail.com) Be Useful judge sin emphasize Today

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  40. I want to thank God for the use of DR IDUMOTA as my source of salvation after 2 years of unemployment and my lover left me alone for 2 years, only broken heart until I met after drivieidumota@gmail.com a testimony ladies how was helped by the same DR. IDUMOTA, so decided to contact him and when I told him all my problems laughed and said this is not a problem. everything will be fine in three days. Exactly on the third day of my ex lover call me surprised me and what surprised me was that a company applies for more than four months ago called and said I should return to work as soon as possible.Am very grateful to DR. IDUMOTA, if you wish to contact him, his email is (drivieidumota@gmail.com) it makes the spell as follows
    (1) If you want your ex back.
    (2) you need a divorce in your relationship
    (3) Want to be promoted in his office.
    (4) Would you men and women run after you.
    (5) If you want a child.
    (6) Do you want to be rich.
    (7) You want to tie your husband and wife to be yours forever.
    (8) If you need financial assistance.
    (9)Herbal Care Contact him today
    (drivieidumota@gmail.com) Be Useful judge sin emphasize Today

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  41. today, I want to use this opportunity to tell everyone about Dr agbalazzy of Olorunoduduwaspiritualtemple@gmail.com, on how he help me reunited with my husband after 2 months of divorce.My husband divorce me because he saw another woman in his office and he said to me that he is no longer in love with me anymore and decide to divorce me.I seek help from the Net and i saw good talk about Dr agbalazzy and i contact him and explain my problem to him and he cast a spell for me which i use to get my husband back within 2 days.am totally happy because there is no repacurtions and side-effect. If you need his help Email him at Olorunoduduwaspiritualtemple@gmail.com

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  42. I'm here to let the whole world know how i got my husband back through the help of a spell caster called Dr. Ekpen Temple, it all started one morning when my husband and I have an argument and he angrily left and said to me that he is no longer coming back to me, at first i thought it was a normal joke, two weeks passed i did hear from him until it became 1 year i still did not hear from him it was then i started looking for how i can get him back (because i love him so much that i don't want to loss him for someone else) is was then i heard about Dr. Ekpen Temple the spell caster on the internet on how he has help so many people in there are relationship so i contacted him, to cut the long story short my husband came back to me and we celebrated the last Christmas and New year together. you can contact Dr. Ekpen Temple on: (((EKPENTEMPLE@gmail. com))) or you can call him on +2347050270218 for help today.

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  43. My ex-boy dumped me 7 months ago after I accused him of seeing another woman and
    insulting him.I want him back in my life but he refused to have any contact with
    me.He changed his line,block me from sending him email and facebook.I was so
    confuse and don't know what to do. So I reach to the internet for help and I saw

    a testimonies of how this powerful spell caster help them to get their ex back.
    So I contact the spell caster whose name is Dr.atitioko and explain my problem to
    him and he cast a spell for me and assure me of 2days that my ex will return to
    me, and to my greatest surprise the Second day my ex came knocking at my door and
    ask me to forgive him.I am so happy that my love is back again. Once again thank
    you Dr.atitioko ,you are truly talented and gifted. Email:

    Dr.atitiokotemple@gmail.com He is the only answer to your problems.He can be of
    great help and I will not stop publishing his name for the good work he did for
    me andpeople are still talking about him on the Internet.
    Dr.atitiokotemple@gmail.com

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  44. I just wanted to say thank you for all.my ex lover is back now. That very powerful spell to STOP THE DIVORCE - and get my ex husband back - as you claimed.email him for help at d.rrivershebalisthome@gmail.com Thank you for all your help.Anna Korkova, FL, USA

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  45. mercy
    I have to say wholeheartedly I believe that dodogodssolution@yahoo.com.is a very gifted individual and gentility his second nature. I have received the most rewarding and spiritual experience whilst conversing with him on the telephone. I heard and saw an angel in my minds-eye it was so overwhelming. I knew at that moment finally my difficulties were over. He deserves recognition for his powers and talents as a beautiful individual who brings spirit close to those in need. I have been touched deeply; nothing has come as close to me before. I am in total awere and have a great deal of respect. Thank you dodogodssolution@yahoo.com. for reuniting me with my estranged husband.

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  46. I am Emil Bouchard,I want to say thank to Dr Agumagu for everything he did in my life. To everyone who doesn't believe in spell, I was one like you at first. I wasn't quite sure if I wanted to do this since I've tried others so-called spells casters and they did not work and was a waste of my time and money. However, when I read so many testimonials of Dr Agumagu how he help people to get back their ex lover. Dr Agumagu answered all my questions and was very nice about everything, I decided to give it a try. I figured it would be my last try to get my ex girlfriend back. So my story is that I was at my office when the girl I suppose to marry told me that she wasn't in love with me and never will it be and that she didn't want to speak or see me again, especially since she was talking to this other guy. i email Dr Agumagu and tell him everything.he let me know which spells would be most appropriate for me and I chose the one that was to get her back to me and stay with me and to marry me.As soon as he finish the spells, my girlfriend came back into my life! It was a miracle to me and I’m so thankful to him, that is why i am sharing this testimony to those who need his help. Things have been going well, and pretty much according to what Dr Agumagu said would happen. I’m very happy for the love spell Dr Agumagu have done for me, my ex girlfriend is now back to me and we are living so happy. if you asked me or my friends if I would have anticipated how things were right now…no one would believe it! contact him is email address (agumaguspelltemple@gmail.com or agumaguspelltemple@outlook.com tell +2348158847627) and here is my private email bouchardemil@gmail.com. Emil Bouchard



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  47. My name is Robin Hellen from CANADA.help me to thank Dr.Ofemo He is a man of his word and the solution of all kind of problems, i call him the physical God on earth because of what he has done for me with his powerful spell, My girlfriend left me 3 month ago and he was leaving with another man just because of money,i feel like my life is completely over. I read over the internet how a spell caster have help several people to get there lover back. I have been depress for the past one month and what i need is to get him back and live with him happily. so i decided to give it a try so i contacted him drofemospelltemple@yahoo.com and explain my problems to him and he cast a love spell which i use to get my girlfriend back and now my life is complete and both of us are very happy with the relationship. and i am throughly grateful to this man,his contact email is drofemospelltemple@gmail.com if you are out there passing through any of this problems or predicaments in your life.his mobile number:+2348163387496 his private website is http://drofemospelltemple2.webs.com/

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  48. It's unbelievable how fortunate I feel after finding your website. For the past 6 months, I have been so depressed after losing my husband to another woman. My money situation worsened so much that I thought I'd have to file for bankruptcy. I had a huge amount of debt and I didn't know what to do. Out of complete and total desperation, I contacted many of those so-called individuals who promised powerful magic, witchcraft or black magic. None of them worked and none were as wonderful, affectionate and warm as Dr Marvel has been. He is definitely different from the others and I felt immediate hope and strength from hearing about the promises he had to offer. He carries an air of purity and divine strength that is as pure as fresh snow on the ground. I requested Dr Marvel's most powerful spells and I was relieved right away that I had someone to solve my problems for me. His spells worked wonders and I am now back with my husband and my money troubles resolved itself after winning the lottery. Dr Marvel, I have no idea what I would have done without you being there to help me out. you can contact him via email extremespellhome@hotmail.com or directly on his website http://extremespellhome.webs.com. or call +2348106985072

    With best regards, Erin

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  49. I and my boyfriend have been dating for four year now and just last three months he told me, he no longer have feeling for me. He did not just say it like that he made it seem like it was his fault. He was like he has been thinking about his life and he feels like he doesn't know himself anymore and that he doesn't want to hurt me in the processes. I mean we all know those line i have used them and we all have the next words are always "I think we should take a break" which mean i want out of this relationship. I wish he told me all those things before he asked me to marry him i would totally move on with my life but now, it turn out that we were already engaged and for six months at that. I felt bonded to him my whole heart beats and skips just for him for the record his name is Sean. I tried all i could to get by knowing or having the thought in my heart that we could still fix us only to realize he broke up with me to actually date a girl i he meant. It was like he got tired of me or something. I basically never turned any of his request down what ever it was. Sean was literally the first guy i had sex with the every first day i meant them. Usually i make them wait for 40 day but with Sean everything felt right. Anytime i was with him i felt this pain in my heart it was like its bleeding but it was bleeding love. It was so magically that i can't just explain it. So living without him knowing he left me for another girl was torture. I tried to talking to him in every way i could to make him see i love him but it was impossible. He made me feel like trash like am good for nothing and he called me fat and ugly. That really broke me down i could not believe it that of every person i have ever dated the one i love the most called me fat and ugly.. Heaven know i was gonna kill myself because i really had nothing to leave for and he didn't even care if i lived or died. I know this sound crazy but it was just what happened. Though we dating again with the help of a great and reliable witchdoctor Metodo Acamu, it still hurts a lot that i had to pass through all those pain. I mean i thought to myself if can't have Sean, i was not going to live to watch him be happy with someone else. As foolish and crazy as this my sound , it was what i almost did. I was going to kill him and kill myself after wards. I don't know, some how, maybe the universe wasn't totally again me i came across the name witch doctor Metodo Acamu and his email address on the Internet there were a lot of comments on how real, nice and how much he has helped a lot of people fix there relationship , money issues, jobs and lottery ticket i thought contacting him was the last thing i should try before pushing on with my plan to take the life of the man i love. Believe me i was so lucky to have contacted him. He told me if i had killed Sean i would have tried in so many ways to kill myself to join him but it won't have worked. I don't know how true that is but i know that i was asked to get some materials for the witch doctor to make a spell that will reunite me and my fiancé. I sent him the money for the materials only because i could not get them anyway. He helped me a lot he sent a package for me with ups of which i paid for to get to me from an international. He told me to say what i want when burning the content of package with something that has the smell of incense and that in seven days Sean will be mine again and believe me please that was just what happened. It was so spiritual and out of earth that i could not understand how but i knew it worked for me and it is totally safe like Metodo Acamu told me. I know this all sound crazy but its so true and real life so. You can only know when those who need Metodo Acamu help get it. Contact him her metodoacamufortressx@yahoo.com

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  50. After being in relationship with him for 3 years,he broke up with me, I did everything possible to bring him back but all was in vain, I wanted him back so much because of the love I have for him, I begged him with everything, I made promises but he refused. I explained my problem to someone online and she suggested that I should rather contact a spell caster that could help me cast a spell to bring him back but I am the type that never believed in spell, I had no choice than to try it, I mailed the spell caster, and he told me there was no problem that everything will be okay before three days, that my ex will return to me before three days, he cast the spell and surprisingly in the second day, it was around 4pm. My ex called me, I was so surprised, I answered the call and all he said was that he was so sorry for everything that happened, that he wanted me to return to him, that he loves me so much. I was so happy and went to him, that was how we started living together happily again. Since then, I have made promise that anybody I know that have a relationship problem, I would be of help to such person by referring him or her to the only real and powerful spell caster who helped me with my own problem and who is different from all the other ones out there. Anybody could need the help of the spell caster, his email is DRAISEDIONSPELLCASTER@GMAIL.COM you can email him if you need his assistance in your relationship or any other problem.

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  51. After four years in marriage with my husband with 2 kids, he suddenly
    started going out with other women and coming home late, each time i
    confronted him it turns out to be a fight and he always threatened to
    divorce me at all time, my marriage was gradually coming to an end. i tried
    all i could to stop him from this unruly attitude but all proved abortive,
    until i saw a comment in the forum about a spell caster who helps people to
    cast spell on marriage and relationship problems, at first i doubted it but
    decided to give it a try, when i contacted this Spell caster Dr.momodu, via
    email, he helped me to cast a spell and within 6 hours my husband came back
    apologizing for all he has done and promised never to do such again and
    today we are happily together again. Contact this Great spell caster for
    your marriage or relationship issues via this email; dr.momodulovespell@gmail.com

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  52. My name is Elena Deri. I am from Canada, I have great joy in me as i am writing this testimony about the great man called Dr. Trust When my lover left me i never taught that i will be able to get him back after all he has put me through, But i am so happy that after the interference of Dr. Trust i was able to get my lover back after 48hours and i can proudly to say, that who ever need help in getting there lover back should contact Dr. Trust on these contact details below Ultimatespellcast@gmail.com for proper understanding of what i have just witness. And i promise that he will help you as he help me. or ultimatespellcast@yahoo.com call +2348156885231

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  53. Hello everyone am Lisa Catellie i want to share a live testimony on how Dr Ogudugu was able to bring my husband back to me, myself and my husband were on a serious breakup, even before then we were always quarreling fighting and doing different ungodly act.. My husband packed his things out of the house and we had to live in different area, despite all this i was looking for a way to re_unite with my husband, not until i met Dr Ogudugu the great spell caster who was able to bring my husband back home, and he assured me that my husband will come back to me within 48hours hours after he has finish the preparation of the love spell.I am very glade today to tell the world that Doctor Ogudugu is truly a man of his word because my husband came back to me and fell on his knees begging me to forgive him and accept him back....Today my family is back again and we are happy living fine and healthy, with Dr Ogudugu all my dream came through in re_uniting my marriage, friends in case you need the help of Dr Ogudugu kindly mail him on(GREATOGUDUGU@GMAIL.COM) or call him on +2348066421534, Sir i will forever recommend you!!!

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  54. After four years in marriage with my husband with 2 kids, he suddenly
    started going out with other women and coming home late, each time i
    confronted him it turns out to be a fight and he always threatened to
    divorce me at all time, my marriage was gradually coming to an end. i tried
    all i could to stop him from this unruly attitude but all proved abortive,
    until i saw a comment in the forum about a spell caster who helps people to
    cast spell on marriage and relationship problems, at first i doubted it but
    decided to give it a try, when i contacted this Spell caster Dr.momodu, via
    email, he helped me to cast a spell and within 6 hours my husband came back
    apologizing for all he has done and promised never to do such again and
    today we are happily together again. Contact this Great spell caster for
    your marriage or relationship issues via this email;( dr.momodulovespell@gmail.com)

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  55. Unimaginable and unbelievable. I am Tracy Jones from the United States and i have a good news to share to the entire world. Do you need your ex husband or lover urgently? I wanna tell you that you need not to worry because i have a good news for those out there that are faced or similar to such situation because there is always a hope and a solution to all problem. There is a great spell caster called Dr Eku who can really solve your problem. Getting my lover back is what i can't imagine but when I was losing Newton, I needed help and somewhere to turn badly but my Aunty told me about this spell caster who also helped her on the internet. I thought it won't work but i just tried to give this man a chance and i ordered a LOVE SPELL. Two days later, my phone rang. Newton was his old self again and wanted to come back to me! Not only come back, the spell caster opened him up to know how much I loved and needed him. This Spell Casting isn’t brainwashing, but he opened up his eyes to know how much we have to share together. I recommend anyone who is in my old situation to try him because he will help you and make things be the way it ought to be. If you have such problem or similar to this, please contact him on his email
    drekuperfectspells@yahoo.com and just visit DREKUPERFECTSPELLS.blogspot.com and see so many people testifying about his perfect work. thank you Dr Eku and may your gods ever reward you for your good deeds..

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  56. I never believed in love spells or magic until I met this spell caster Great Oriri which a friend of mine told me about on (greatoririobaspellhome@gmail.com) he is really powerful and could help cast spells to bring back one’s gone, lost, misbehaving lover and magic money spell or spell for a good job or luck spell .I’m now happy & a living testimony because the man I wanted to marry left me 3 weeks before our wedding and my life was upside down because our relationship has been on for 3years. I really loved him, but his family was against us and he had no good paying job. So when I met this spell caster, I told him what happened and explained the situation of things to him. At first I was undecided, skeptical and doubtful, but I just gave it a try. And in 8 days when I returned to Canada, my boyfriend (now my husband) called me by himself and came to me apologizing that everything had been settled with his mom and family and he got a new job interview so we should get married. I didn’t believe it because the spell caster only asked for my name and my boy friends name and all I wanted him to do. Well we are happily married now and we are expecting our little kid, and my husband also got the new job and our lives became much better. His email is greatoririobaspellhome@gmail.com; you can also contact him for help. I wish you good luck. Morgan Clara

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  57. I want to testify of the good work of Doctor Ebakor who helped me in achieving the one thing i never thought i was going to have again. My name is Emilia from United Kingdom, London. I was in a relationship for 3 years with a man i believed he loved me so much. At a time he started acting funny in every little thing i do. So, i knew something was wrong i tried everything i could to please him but none was working after a while i noticed some changes in him, I tried to do things that will make him happy several ways but all to no avail. Shortly, i discovered that he was seeing another girl, his EX. I tried to make him understand that i love him so much but he wouldn't even listen. One day, i read several testimonies on a similar case a person testified of the work of a powerful spell caster called Doctor Ebakor. Even when i did not believe, i was convinced by my friend Sarah who Doctor Ebakor has also helped in a similar case like mine. So, i contacted him and tried his method reluctantly, surprisingly in less than two(2) days my lover contacted me to apologize for what he as done to me and that he his fully ready and willing to have me back into his life and till date we are still together and planning to get married soon. We both are now like a team as he always want to assist me in everything i do. So, if you are going through a similar thing or you have relationship problems just contact him and i personally give you my guarantee of 100% that he will help you as well. Here is his email; "Doctorebakorspelltemple@hotmail.com'', Mobile contact: ''+2348135254384'' and lastly his Website: http://doctorebakorspelltemple.webs.com

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  58. i am here to give testimony of how i got back my husband, we got married for more than 9 years and have gotten two kids. thing were going well with us and we are always happy. until one day my husband started to behave in a way i could not understand, i was very confused by the way he treat me and the kids. later that month he did not come home again and he called me that he want a divorce, i asked him what have i done wrong to deserve this from him, all he was saying is that he want a divorce that he hate me and do not want to see me again in his life, i was mad and also frustrated do not know what to do,i was sick for more than 2 weeks because of the divorce. i love him so much he was everything to me without him my life is incomplete. i told my sister and she told me to contact a spell caster, i never believe in all this spell casting of a thing. i just want to try if something will come out of it. i contacted supremetemple@hotmail.com for the return of my husband to me, they told me that my husband have been taken by another woman, that she cast a spell on him that is why he hate me and also want us to divorce. then they told me that they have to cast a spell on him that will make him return to me and the kids, they casted the spell and after 1 week my husband called me and he told me that i should forgive him, he started to apologize on phone and said that he still live me that he did not know what happen to him that he left me. it was the spell that he traditional spell hospital casted on him that make him comeback to me today,me and my family are now happy again today. thank you Dr papa for what you have done for me i would have been nothing today if not for your great spell. i want you my friends who are passing through all this kind of love problem of getting back their husband, wife , or ex boyfriend and girlfriend to contact supremetemple@hotmail.com.or call +27799527702 and you will see that your problem will be solved without any delay.

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  59. Need a spell caster?then think of DR,OBEYED he is real reliable and he does what he promise you.I know all this because he helped with my marriage problem.For security reason i will not live my name here but i can tell you all he did to help me.Me and my family live in the US military base here in America,my wife is a solider and i love it that she is and i support.But being a solider means she is half my wife and fully the U.S army.before her three tour we were so in love and we had a kid son who we both love him.It all changed after her two tour in Iraq and Afghanistan,i noticed the distance her second tour she stopped call at first i thought maybe she was part of an accident but i found out that she was OK in Afghanistan.She explained that she always on patrol.It got ugly on the third. I guess in the last two tours she found herself a new lover and then totally forgetting me and our boy.I can not say i did not notice because she always has to be some where instead of with me,coming up with some silly excuse not to be with me that is ( have sex ) and her entire behavior told me all i needed to know. i did my research and i had a hint that it was her squad lieutenant.I had know evidence so a could not take the matter to any body.It killed me to seeing this happen i was going suicidal.What hurt me the most was she going home knowing that i suspect she infidelity,she kept lying to me over and over again.The power of positive thinking helped me a lot.I thought that maybe i can find in the help on the internet with the people who had being in the same problem with him.I found a lot of ways but nor worked except DR,OBEYED spell.At that time five month ago i was so confused that i could do anything to get my wife back so i contacted DR,OBEYED with his email address i saw in some comment on the internet at oballnaspiritualtemple@mail.co m.I laid down my problem to him and told him the entire story and he even confirmed my hint was right, how he did i do not know but he was right because my wife told me later after the spell was made effective. DR,OBEYED cast a spell on them both do not know what he did but it seem he made them both forget they ever crossed path romantically speaking like they never know each other expect there official relationship that is squad leader and solider.I owe my life to DR,OBEYED what he did saved my marriage.I can tell you this because i have tried and it worked for me.Your case also have a solution with DR,OEYED contact him with his email: drobeyedspellcaster@gmail.com

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  60. Need a spell caster?then think of DR,OBEYED he is real reliable and he does what he promise you.I know all this because he helped with my marriage problem.For security reason i will not live my name here but i can tell you all he did to help me.Me and my family live in the US military base here in America,my wife is a solider and i love it that she is and i support.But being a solider means she is half my wife and fully the U.S army.before her three tour we were so in love and we had a kid son who we both love him.It all changed after her two tour in Iraq and Afghanistan,i noticed the distance her second tour she stopped call at first i thought maybe she was part of an accident but i found out that she was OK in Afghanistan.She explained that she always on patrol.It got ugly on the third. I guess in the last two tours she found herself a new lover and then totally forgetting me and our boy.I can not say i did not notice because she always has to be some where instead of with me,coming up with some silly excuse not to be with me that is ( have sex ) and her entire behavior told me all i needed to know. i did my research and i had a hint that it was her squad lieutenant.I had know evidence so a could not take the matter to any body.It killed me to seeing this happen i was going suicidal.What hurt me the most was she going home knowing that i suspect she infidelity,she kept lying to me over and over again.The power of positive thinking helped me a lot.I thought that maybe i can find in the help on the internet with the people who had being in the same problem with him.I found a lot of ways but nor worked except DR,OBEYED spell.At that time five month ago i was so confused that i could do anything to get my wife back so i contacted DR,OBEYED with his email address i saw in some comment on the internet at oballnaspiritualtemple@mail.co m.I laid down my problem to him and told him the entire story and he even confirmed my hint was right, how he did i do not know but he was right because my wife told me later after the spell was made effective. DR,OBEYED cast a spell on them both do not know what he did but it seem he made them both forget they ever crossed path romantically speaking like they never know each other expect there official relationship that is squad leader and solider.I owe my life to DR,OBEYED what he did saved my marriage.I can tell you this because i have tried and it worked for me.Your case also have a solution with DR,OEYED contact him with his email: drobeyedspellcaster@gmail.com

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  61. My name is Hazzard Ruiz from Florida I have to give this miraculous testimony, which is so unbelievable until now. I had a problem with my Ex husband 2years ago, which lead to our break up. when he broke up with me, I was not my self again, i felt so empty inside me, my love and financial situation became worst, until a close friend of mine Lucy told me about a spell caster who helped her in the same problem too his name is Dr Kpelede at kpeledesolutiontemple@gmail.com . I email Dr Kpelede the spell caster and i told him my problem and i did what he asked of me, to cut the long story short. Before i knew what was happening my husband gave me a call and told me that he was coming back to me in just 2days and was so happy to have him back to me. We have two kids together and we are happy with ourselves. Thanks to Dr Kpelede kpeledesolutiontemple@gmail.com for saving my relationship and for also saving others own too. continue your good work, If you are interested to contact him and testify this blessings like me, the great spell caster email address is kpeledesolutiontemple@gmail.com you are the best among all the spell caster online I hope you see my testimonies and also pray for my family too.

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  62. This is my testimony about the good work of a man who helped me..My name is Tracy Adams, and I base in Canada. My life is back!!! After 2 years of marriage, my husband left me with our three kids. I felt like my life was about to end, and was falling apart. Thanks to a spell caster called Dr edudu who i met online. On one faithful day, as I was browsing through the internet, I was searching for a good spell caster that can solve my problems. I came across series of testimonies about this particular spell caster. Some people testified that he brought their Ex lover back, some testified that he restores womb, some testified that he can cast a spell to stop divorce and so on. There was one particular testimony I saw, it was about a woman called grace,she testified about how Dr edudu brought back her Ex lover in less than 72 hours and at the end of her testimony she gave Dr edudu e-mail address. After reading all these,I decided to give Dr edudu a try. I contacted him with his via email address and explained my problem to him. In just 2 days, my husband came back to me. We solved our issues, and we are even happier than before. Dr edudu is really a talented and gifted man and i will not to stop publishing him because he is a wonderful Dr...If you have a problem and you are looking for a real and genuine spell caster to solve that problem for you. Try Dr edudu today, he might be the answer to your problem. Here's his contact: dreduduspellhome@gmail.com Thank you once again Dr edudu him can in this following problem

    (1)If you want your ex back.
    (2) if you always have bad dreams.
    (3)You want to be promoted in your office.
    (4)You want women/men to run after you.
    (5)If you want a child.
    (6)[You want to be rich.
    (7)You want to tie your husband/wife to be yours forever.
    (8)If you need financial assistance.
    (9)If you want to stop your Divorce
    10)Help bringing people out of prison
    (11)Marriage Spells
    (12)Miracle Spells
    (13)Beauty Spells
    (14)PROPHECY CHARM
    (15)Attraction Spells
    (16)Evil Eye Spells
    (17)Kissing Spell

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