***Submitted by Anonymous
Once again the bottle is almost empty, and I don't want to buy another one, but I do want to buy another one. I go to different liquor stores so nobody sees me too often.
I don't know how to stop.
My husband says he wants the old me back, but I don't know who the old me is anymore.
I have anxiety, and the drinking gets rid of it, but I truly don't know what came first. The anxiety or the alcoholism.
I know all the health risks to my excessive drinking, but some part of me doesn't care, and I can't figure out why. I have a wonderful husband, two grown daughters who are married to great men, and two beautiful granddaughters.
I was let go from my last job for "causing disharmony amongst the staff." Something completely not true. The drinking really went into high gear as I searched for a new job for 22 months. I have been at my new job for five months now, and I really like it.
I have everything to quit drinking, but for some reason I can't do it.
If you have any ideas for me, I would truly love to hear them.