***Submitted by Kim
I recently quit drinking because I knew there was no other choice. I have 3 kids and I would binge drink every other night and sneak cigarettes on top of it. Talk about feeling like shit. Meanwhile I went to the gym 5 days a week and ate very well..go figure..does not make much sense. I also started to get short with my kids because I was always tired from waking up in the middle of th night and mentally beatig myself up for doing it again. I was not being the best mom and wife that I was meant to be because of my dirty little secret and I wanted to make sure that I will be around for my family and be happy and healthy.
I do think however that it is a challenge to stay sober when so many activities involve alcohol and many people can have a few drinks and be fine but not me..I will start with the intention of having "a" drink and once that first one hits my lips I can't get enough..so now enough is enough. I am finding it hard to engage in the activities that I used to without the drinks it seems boring, I mean something like going to a ball game or going to a cookout or having one of our many cookouts. Even sitting on the patio on a beautiful evening is not the same without a Bud light in my hand.
When you drink it is easier to talk to people, to be social, to laugh, to tell jokes..but when you are an alcoholic it is also easier to make a fool of yourself..to have to check you text messages and see who you called last night and it is easier to wonder what damage you did last night in one of your dumb drunk conversations. When you are an alcoholic you think no one notices but they all do and they just don't know how to tell you..for everytime you go to any function you over drink..you talk too much..you say dumb things..and you inevitably wake up with a hangover and swear off alcohol only to get right back in within days.
I think if you remember all of the reasons to stay sober it will make it easier..things like remembering tucking your kids into bed at night..sitting with them to read a book instead of sneaking out front for a smoke...getting up in the morning and feeling great that you did not drink last night..getting rid of that little gut that you got from drinking..not having to starve yourself because you drank a million calories worth of alcohol last night..knowing that everyday your body is getting healthier and healthier...not obsessing about the fact that what you are doing is a train wreck in the making....and lastly knowing that you don't have to look in the mirror with shame because you know that what you are doing is totally wrong and could ruin your life and your health.