***Submitted by Anna, and originally posted on her blog, Chardonnay No More on Feb. 22, 2011
Today is day one. Day one of not pouring a glass of my favorite beverage, Chardonnay – a beverage that has become my best friend and enemy all in one savory sip.
Tonight my mind won’t get fuzzy and my nerves won’t be calmed by a bottle.
I won’t have that warm feeling come over me as I sink into the couch.
I will remember tucking the kids into bed.
I will have to be mentally and emotionally present when my husband fondles me and tells me he loves me while climbing on top.
I will not sweat all night, wake up having a panic attack or drink a gallon of water trying to flush my friend/enemy called Chardonnay out of my body.
My head won’t hurt in the morning and my eyes won’t be glassy. I won’t have to consume minty gum, mouth wash and suck on candy to cover up the fruity alcohol sent that could linger.
I will wave to the police officer that circles the school road without my heart jumping out of my body in a panic.
A hangover isn’t drunk driving – is it?
Today is day one of figuring out how to live sober without Chardonnay in my life. To figure out who I am again without the bottle to relieve tension, make me smile and laugh or cope with heartache and stress.
Today is day one and each day will be a new start. A fresh start without my friend Chardonnay, Chardonnay no more!