***Submitted by Melissa
We all have/had fear about living without the booze in our life. It is our safety blanket and we can't imagine how we will manage without it. I think that alcohol messes with our minds and starts to create this monster fear of life without booze--- kind of like a manipulative controlling lover who makes you feel like you will be nothing without them. I think it is safe to say that it is probably what ultimately kept all of us from quitting. Many of us pushed through that and "faced the fear and did it anyway."
And it is so true that the fear is much worse than the thing we are actually afraid of, but the only way to really know that is to try it out and see for ourself-- and jumping off the cliff with a little faith and a lot of fear is scary. It's very similar to being in a bad relationship.
We are afraid we'll never find anyone better, that we'll never find that kind of happiness again. And yet, breakups happen and we all manage to not only survive, but eventually thrive.
Now being sober for five months, I certainly wouldn't say that most of my sober moments have been "scary". Some have been uncomfortable, painful, annoying and not much fun, but here I am, still surviving and thriving despite the fact that I can't rely on my wine anymore.
And the best part is that there are lots of great positive moments that the alcoholic me didn't even know I was missing out on. So for those of you still struggling with quitting, there is a better, clearer version of your life waiting for you but you won't be able to see that it is there until you get out of the fog of the booze. And once you do see it, you'll realize how valuable it is.